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Phobias can be various. And of course something may trigger that fear.
I was scrolling my YouTube and found this calm, sweet video of a guy, Sam who had fear of looking up. He was bullied by his friends as he was a short boy in school (and still is). Since then, he always wear a cap, with the fear to even turn his head upwards.
Watching the video make me realized how grateful I should be, for not having it. It is quite sad if I'm not able to see the sky (as this is what I love to do the most). There are so many things that people with anablephobia can't enjoy. T_T
- Sunset or sunrise
- Rain / snowfall
- Rainbow
- Firecrackers
- Aircraft's performances
- Birds flying
- Hot air balloon
- Etc......
And, an important thing while communicating with others; the faces of people. I love eye contact when talking to people.
The video is very long, to be honest. Watch if you want to :)
To escape fear, you have to go through it, not around
I learned this.
I think I shared that I have fear with the traffic lights turning red from green. It is not that I have fear with the red color, as I don't have problem with blood and I saw lots of surgery and bleeding so far. I just don't like the feeling of being in the middle of the road with traffic lights changing colors.
Yeah, it may be weird to some people. Even though I am just a passenger - like I'm taking the bus somewhere, wondering why I still have that fear.
Trying to change, I will breathe more every time I saw the traffic lights. I will try to keep calm and don't rush towards it. After few times using the same road, I managed to see the patterns of traffic. And even, I can roughly calculate how many seconds before the light changing colors. :)
Haha. Suddenly I miss traffic lights in Malaysia where there are countdown numbers.
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I read somewhere that people with this problem don't like to be in the middle of two things. Not sure to agree with it or not, but making a decision is quite hard for me nowadays. Especially decision where other people involved as well. I was firm with my decision before, but it didn't feel good when other people not satisfied with it. I know I can't fulfill other people's hope all the time, but still.....
There is no ideal decision made by all of us, all the time right?
:)
I think I shared that I have fear with the traffic lights turning red from green. It is not that I have fear with the red color, as I don't have problem with blood and I saw lots of surgery and bleeding so far. I just don't like the feeling of being in the middle of the road with traffic lights changing colors.
Yeah, it may be weird to some people. Even though I am just a passenger - like I'm taking the bus somewhere, wondering why I still have that fear.
Trying to change, I will breathe more every time I saw the traffic lights. I will try to keep calm and don't rush towards it. After few times using the same road, I managed to see the patterns of traffic. And even, I can roughly calculate how many seconds before the light changing colors. :)
Haha. Suddenly I miss traffic lights in Malaysia where there are countdown numbers.
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I read somewhere that people with this problem don't like to be in the middle of two things. Not sure to agree with it or not, but making a decision is quite hard for me nowadays. Especially decision where other people involved as well. I was firm with my decision before, but it didn't feel good when other people not satisfied with it. I know I can't fulfill other people's hope all the time, but still.....
Susah nak puaskan hati org. Buat cara A, yg ni terasa. Buat cara B, yg tu terasa. So?— Hanis Amanina (@HanisAmanina) April 10, 2017
Buat je ikut plan sendiri asalkan tak langgar syarak.
There is no ideal decision made by all of us, all the time right?
:)
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